Memories Fade

I take actions to keep some one close
But someone else slips away whiel I am busy doing that
irony

I have finally finished all the paper work that surronds my purchase of the cottage. My things are packed up and ready to go. I don't have much really, so it was an easy task.
I am not nervous about my new home. I am more nervous abbout living with Sora. Bot, oh, I am excited! I will never fear of him disapearing again!
He is my bets friend and I love him dearly. I have never loved anyone like I love him. He is in my heart and in my soul.
Just two more days till we are in the house...


On another note, I must speak with Namine again. It's about the man that is not SOra. I still have much to learn about him.

Sora,
Meet me tomorrow, in the backyard of my host parents' house. I need to ask you something.

Kisses,
Kairi

I am not an adult--this i do know. But I do not consider myself a child. But it seems that many do. Do I always ooze helplessness? Is that what I have become?
I thought I was stronger. I tried to help Sora though he would only let my help be limited. Then I waited for him before I ended up here. Did I become weak in my waiting?
I do not want to be this way. I was to help protect my friends not cause them danger.

Shadows....what exactly are they anyway?

I learned so much about the nobodies today. I even learned about the heartless. Namine's theory about how I became a nobody is true. I lost my heart and took soalce in Sora's....But since my heart was so strong, a nobod formed instead. I didn't find any ting about integration. This may be because there is not a way. I don't believe this though. Somehow, I think Sora and his Keyblade can change that. But the good thing is that I can't. I can feel safe that I won't make my friend disapear just by living. This is what I was trying to find out.

I have some research I am planning. I will get to the bottom of this after all. It's not school research, but something more important--something that has to do with me.

On another note, I am looking at a small cottage near teh beach. It's in pretty rough shape. I cna fix it up, I know. I have to get out of this house, My host parents have been nice but I want to have my own place. I want to talk to someone one about moving in...but I am nervous. I am left to wonder...

The sky has blackened and the beaches are wet with rain. My toes have trouble digging in the saturated sand. The clouds obscure the moon and all the twinkling stars have been blackened out. The ocean speaks of violence--so much of it to come.
Every shadow makes me shudder. They twitch and hum, and I am afraid that each one will shift into a heartless, its antenna waving in the air and its beady yellow eyes staring into mine,
The last time nature spoke so, I was washed away from my home for the second time. I was seperated fro, the ones that I loved.
And here I am. I left the safety of Hollow Bastion and ended up here. Here, howevere you get here. I am afriad that this place is Destiny Island reborn.

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.  (Sora, Riku)	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	× I own lots of books.
× I wear glasses or contact lenses.	× I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
× I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.  (I am not as playful as I used to be...maybe I willr egain that one day.)	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

( it goes on... )

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I talked with Sora tonight. He helped me with my conflicting feelings. I feel the same, whole. I don't want Namine to disapear, but I still want to be whole. But Sora says I'm whole. He dosen't care about Namine being my nobody. That makes me feel so much better.
The two of us....together again...whole

I spoke to Namine yesterday. I did much better this time; I didn't freak out about the nobodies. I am being to accept them. Besides I feel no different then I used to. I still have the ability to love and all my memories. The fear of disapearing was a foolish one, but I had no idea, at first, what would happen to me.

I also talked to Riku today. He said he was fine and just a little upset Sora was gone for so long. He said he was happy with Namine and that makes me glad.

But I feel like I haven't gotten to the bottom of things. There is something I am missing. I must talk with Sora soon...

I need someone to talk to...
I need to talk to Namine
I need to talk to Sora
I need to talk to Riku
I need to talk to someone who dosen't knwo what is going on so I can get perspective

Riku acts so very diffrent now. He dosen't seem to care that Sora is here. Weeks ago he was eager to find him. But now.... Every since he started dating Namine...
Has she done something to him...Have i done something to him...
What the hell is going on?

I woke up today with this feeling.
Better things are coming my way.
I know the sunshine has a meaning,
And nothing left can get in my way

When the rainy days are dying,
Gotta keep on, keep on trying
All the bees and birds are flying
Ahhhh...

Never let go, gotta hold on and
Nonstop 'til the break of dawn and
Keep on moving, don't stop rocking
Ahhhh...

Get on up
When you're down, baby,
Take a good look around.
I know it's not much,
But it's okay.
Keep on movin' on anyway

Feels like I have should be screaming,
Trying get through to my friends.
sometimes it feels that life has no meaning,
But all things will be alright in the end.

When the rainy days are dying,
Gotta keep on, keep on trying
All the bees and birds are flying
Ahhhh...

Never let go, gotta hold on and
Non-stop 'til the break of dawn and
Keep on moving, don't stop rocking
Ahhhh...

Get on up
When you're down, baby,
Take a good look around.
I know it's not much,
But it's okay.
Keep on movin' on anyway

When the rainy days are dying,
Gotta keep on, keep on trying
All the bees and birds are flying
Ahhhh...
Never let go, gotta hold on and
Nonstop 'til the break of dawn and
Keep on moving, don't stop rocking
Ahhhh...

Get on up
When you're down, baby,
Take a good look around.
I know it's not much,
But it's okay.
Keep on movin' on anyway

Get on up
When you're down, baby,
Take a good look around.
I know it's not much,
But it's okay.
Keep on movin' on anyway
Get on up

Keep on movin'
Keep on movin'
Keep on movin'
Keep on movin'
I know it's not much
Keep on movin'
Keep on movin'
Keep on movin'
Keep on movin'
Get on up
Keep on movin'
Keep on movin'

Sora and Riku,

I have made reservation at the Syren's Song for Wednesday. The three of us should go and eat and catch up! Let me know!

Love you guys!
Kairi

Am I incomplete? Is there something wrong with me?
Is there something wrong with Sora?
I know I was rigt about where I came from but I have no idea who I WAS...
But now I am not me, or am I?
How can I hold this against her? I can't. She didn't do it to hurt me...
I must be brave and face her again and find out more than I know...
I could only handle so much...

I am goin to see that girl tnight. She seems so familiar to me. I have to know if I met her during that time that I can't remember. She may can tell me my past...
There was this bond...strong...instant....
I'm going this afternoon.

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Who the hell is this Roxas guy anyway? Why does he look like Sora? Why does he have the same mannerisms? Why does hsi aura shine liek Sora's? What is going on?
Why?
There are not two Soras. There are not.
I am so confused. Pain dwells inside me. I have no idea what to do...